I’ve
decided to do a series on my Lupus/MS symptoms and crazy happenings. Things that I personally experience … maybe
it will help some to understand what people with autoimmune diseases go
through. It never makes sense, not even
to the doctors.
Imagine
this … you’re in a hotel in a strange town ALONE and your husband has gone to
do what he does when he visits his stores (in other words he’s working) and you
have no idea where this store is, not even the address but you can get in touch
with him if necessary. You wake up
feeling good, normal, get showered, dressed, hair blow dried and fixed, make up
on … you feel fine but need a little boost so you go downstairs to the lobby
for a cup of coffee. Just so ya’ll know …
I do not drink coffee on a regular basis.
Anyway, you’re pouring your coffee and all of a sudden you feel funny …
odd. Your tummy feels queasy and you
start breaking out into a cold sweat.
You can’t think straight and then you feel like you need to sit down NOW! You carry your coffee and its fixins over to
the nearest table and chairs, sit down and try to finish making it but you’re
now sweating a cold sweat bigtime and its starting to run down your neck and
back. You’re thinking “I’m gonna pass out
or throw up”. You sit there thinking “okay, I’ll feel better
if I just sit here and relax” but NO it gets worse. You really think you’re going to pass out
right there in the lobby of this strange hotel in this strange city or throw up
… maybe even both. Your hands are
shaking and your head is swimming. You
start to pray “please Lord don’t let me pass out or throw up, not here, not
alone”. You get up on wobbly legs and
somehow make it to the elevators … leaving the coffee behind and barely
managing to hold onto your purse. All
the while praying now that you can get back to your room without passing out in
the lobby or on the elevator “Lord please just let me make it to my room”. Somehow you manage to push the right buttons
on the elevator because your head is swimming so badly you cannot even think
straight and you’re still praying “Lord please help me”. On the elevator ride up 3 flights your
heaving and trying to breathe through it and not throw up or pass out … “breathe
Debbie just breathe”. You manage to get
through your hotel room door and into the bathroom when your cell phone (which
is in your purse) starts ringing … I knew I needed to answer it because I know
its Scott calling to see if I’m ready … he’s done and on his way back. I can’t answer it cause I’m throwing up and
heaving like crazy into the toilet that thank the Lord I made it to. I had had nothing to eat yet and only water
in my system so you can imagine I wasn’t throwing up much of anything. Finally … you manage to make it to the bed to
lie down and Scott arrives. He knows
right away I’m having one of those episodes.
10 minutes later … I’m absolutely fine.
As fine as rain and sunshine …like it never happened. This, my friends, is one of those crazy episodes
I get that come outta nowhere … no rhyme or reason and usually at the most inopportune
times. This one was one of the scariest cause
I was ALONE and out of my comfort zone (home).
Thank you Lord that I didn’t pass out anywhere in that hotel … ALONE.
This
happens to me often … totally out of my control … while out to dinner, just
when Scott gets dinner on the table, just as I/we are headed out the door to go
somewhere, out shopping … many places and always always for no reason
whatsoever!!!
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